So then, let us summarize. Why do 85% of human beings have a death wish. First, lets’ put the so called death wish into a different perspective.

If we see the death wish as a desire to return to a previous state or condition of existence, that is to say, pre-luciferian and pre-earthly, then perhaps it does not seem so bad or such a crazy idea.

Maybe, just maybe we just want to go home. Maybe we are just homesick. Every single human that has a near death experience and returns to his body, is no longer afraid of dying. That fear is gone. This is a universal experience.

Even If we momentarily return to our true state of being, that of uncompressed light, then it is easy to understand why we would no longer be afraid. In those moments, we are home. Satan hates this with a passion.

We are no longer in a state of fear. Thus, satan loses control of his creation once more and that pisses him off. Plus in those moments, like Aeschylus states, “comes wisdom to us by the awful grace of god”.

Thus through a near death experience we are able to confirm that our true nature is that of being uncompressed light, that we are gods, not bound by the physical laws on earth.

Is that not amazing! How wonderful to return to our previous state of existence, pre-luciferian and pre-earthly. I believe that humans long to return to this previous state but are prevented from doing so by lucifers’ great deception. Our senses trap us here on this dimension. The “materiality” of our earthly body and earthly existence traps and captures of attention and intention.

The material possessions then trap us and actually own us, instead of us owning the material possessions. That is part of the luciferian trap. In job of the old testament it states, “naked and alone I was born, and thus naked and alone I will die.”

But then, do we really “own” material possessions? Or do we simply get to use them for our temporary stay here on this earth!

Furthermore, most humans get caught in the luciferian trap of having to earn fiat “money” to feed ourselves and clothe ourselves. We spend most of our waking hours trying to figure how to make enough fiat “money” to pay bills, I mean discharge bills, and in general just to make ends meet. Thus all of our energies are consumed in satans’ web of deception, the fake economic system.

The time we do not spend chasing fake “money” we spend in front of the demonic invention, our televisions, getting bombarded by absolute crap that passes for entertainment. Lucifer created on earth the perfect system of enslavement.

If indeed we have a holographic cell memory that cannot be verbalized because the experiences we had during that time in history were during a time when we communicated telepathically, then a lot of things begin to make sense.

We are not going to be able to verbalize the general malaise that we feel. We will not be able to verbalize the recognition of the horrible trauma of being split in half, of having so much taken away from us.

Simply because we cannot verbalize our feelings, does not mean that we do not have them. If we have this holographic cell memory then it runs through every fiber of our very being.

Many humans feel a general dis-connectedness with reality. A vague feeling that something is very wrong, but not being able to verbalize it. And if we do succeed in a distorted verbalization of portions of our feelings, we are quickly labeled as psychos and wackos.

And of course the quick and easy remedy is to put us on drugs and quickly remove us from the general population and into the psycho wards.

The real question is, “why does such a large percentage of humans feel this way.” If the percentages were 5 or 10 percent, then maybe it would make sense in terms of psychos and wackos. But are 85% or more of humans, psychos and wackos? This is a majority. Surely, there must be another explanation.

In addition, if due to this holographic cell memory, we have a memory of all events, large and small, then humans suffer from a memory of all the violence and crimes ever committed for the last fifty thousand years. That is an incredible burden. There must be a huge guilt load that all humans carry but only 85% of us are aware of it.

How can we humans feel good about our sordid, violent and in-humane history of blood letting. The ego, satans’ creation, on the other hand, loves its own vainglory.

Aeschylus is worth repeating here. “god, whose law it is, that he who learns must suffer, and even in our sleep, pain that cannot forget, falls drop by drop upon the heart, and in our own despair, against our will, comes wisdom to us, by the awful grace of god.”

Every time I read this quote I get tears in my eyes and I cry, sometimes openly, sometimes on the inside. There is something about it, it connects with something inside of me long forgotten.

Perhaps we are also totally ashamed of finding ourselves in our present condition and to further complicate things, we are not allowed any options to remedy our condition as there is the great prohibition against suicide.

Perhaps it is exactly this powerlessness to affect a change in our condition that causes us the greatest pain and suffering.

While Lucifer despises us, he also needs us here on earth for our blood, our semen and our breast milk.

Lucifer knows about the holographic cell memory and he works full time to keep our attention focused on the gladiatorial arena called prison planet earth.

In addition, within this holographic cell memory we have a memory of our existence prior to the trauma of being split in half by Lucifer. We have the memory that at some time in our existence we were gods indeed. Did not Christ alert us to this fact, “ye are gods”.

Now this reluctance is coming into focus.

In addition to being split in half by Lucifer, our brains were also split into two hemispheres. This was seen as necessary by Lucifer to further dominate us and keep us in the dark. Remember the luciferian doctrine of “divide and conquer”?  There is a great saying I memorized, it states, "In each of us there are two Natures, the good and the evil.  All of our lives a fight goes on between them.  However, in the end one of them must conquer.  That which we most want to be, we are".  With a split brain, every human being is constantly and continously at war with him/herself.  I have also noticed that with our split brain, we can hold two opposing thoughts at the same time and not feel any discrepancy.  This is by design.

In addition, many of the chemicals in our foods are known to further dis-sociate our two brain hemispheres. For instance, garlic is known to dis-sociate the two brain hemispheres. Lucifer knew exactly what he was doing.  Because of our split brain, Lucifer can easily manipulate us, and decieve us into the passions of war.

The current count is about 84,000 chemicals on planet earth, with many of these being consumed by humans without their knowledge or permission.  The desired outcome of these chemicals is to further dis-sociate the brain.  To keep each and every human being in a constant state of conflict within themselves.  A state of dis-harmony.   When the brain is dis-sociated and split into warring halves, then the human brain can hold contradictory positions and not see the discrepancy.  Then we truly arrive at George Orwell's  "1984" where "War is peace", ignorance is strength, weakness is strength, immorality is virtue, lies are truth, compassion is weakness, ad nauseaum.  "1984" is an inner state of mind that must exist within prior to it existing without.  Through the deception of Satan, everything on Earth is reversed.  All religions on Earth worship Satan thru his deception.  All nations worship Mammon, the god of money.  Satan has left nothing to chance.  Everything in this third dimension is controlled from the beginning to the desired outcome.  We are a slave race on Earth.  All religions of the world serve Mammon.

For instance, the United States corporation, disguised as "government" set up the controlled demolition of the three buildings called the World Trade Center and then used this as a pretext to capture as prize Iraq and Afghanistan.  Both wars are "contractor" wars for profit for numerous corporations of the "Military/Industrial Complex".  A great little book written by a WWI general, Butler, if I remember correctly, titled, "War is a racket".  In Iraq, the United States corporation wanted to control the oil and to establish permanent military bases on the basis of the "perpetual war" against "Terrorism".  In Afghanistan, the two goals were to build an oil pipeline thru Afghanistan from the oil rich "Stans" countries of the former Soviet Union and to protect and preserve the heroin supply provided by the vast poppy fields of Afghanistan.  Oil and drugs---simple equation.  The CIA is the biggest world wide drug dealer, supplier and grower of all of the precursor plants for heroin, morphine, cocaine and all narcotics.  Michael Rupert, estimated that if all of the drug money was removed from the U.S. economy, the U.S. economy would collapse overnight.

One other little tidbit of information.  None of the fortune 500 companies listed on the NY stock exchange are subject to the cash reporting requirements of the SEC.  These companies are used to launder and clean the drug money of the CIA and the worldwide drug cartels.  The CIA works hand in hand with all of the worlds' drug cartels while at the same time conducting a fictitious "War on Drugs".  Satan loves the CIA.

Sorry I deviated a little bit there.  Ok, back on track.

Recall from earlier in the book that all recall of death experiences is universally positive across the entire planet. Most people describe a clear feeling of being released from what feels like a prison, our body.

And of course, the numerous descriptions of the “LIGHT” TO WHICH WE ARE ATTRACTED AND RETURN TO.

Lucifer knows that when we “die” we are released from our prison bodies and our light is de-compressed and we return to our previous, true nature of being gods of light.  I believe that upon death, we are released from "Hell" and return to our true nature, Beings of Light.  It is Lucifer that stole our light thru his Bio-engineering project thousands of years ago.  In the New Testament, Christ stated, "If the light that be in thee is darkness, how great is that darkness".

At that point Lucifer loses control of his creation, adom and eve, and he hates it because it is indicative yet another failure on his part.

Perhaps as lucifers’ reign and domination wane more and more here on earth, the clearer our memories become. We feel less and less imprisoned and feel more freedom to remember as well as attempt to verbalize these holographic cell memories. We actually begin to integrate our being.

Maybe this year, 2012 will be the year that we humans achieve total recall of our true nature, we are gods and additionally, we reclaim our status as gods.

Maybe we will achieve full integration.

I would imagine that Lucifer is desperate to prevent this from ever taking place as that would surely end his reign permanently.

The mayan calendar predicts 2,000 years of light, love, peace, harmony and freedom from tyranny. Surely satan cannot be very happy about this prospect.

Right now the "Apocalypse" has begun.  The traditional view of the Apocalypse is the the world will end.  In Latin, the real meaning of the word Apocalypse is "the revelation of hidden, secret knowledge that reveals the fraud and deception of thousands of years and of our real origin".

I see a massive awakening of Humanity across the Earth.

I am hopeful of a new cosmic consciousness for humanity.